Gym

I really want to work out, the only problem is that I tend to over do it. I really want to work out but I don't want to head downhill again. I really miss being able to work out. I feel fat and gross, disgusting. All I want to do is lose weight but I know I can't do that. I hate my stomach and I hate my legs, I hate my thighs and I hate my chest. My face is fat and my fingers are short. I just want to be skinny and beautiful but I cannot do so. I hate being in my body and just want to rip my skin off. On the outside I look okay but my head is spinning, my thoughts are racing, it won't shut up and I cannot find peace. I just want it to go away and be able to enjoy my life but ED won't let me.